I've been thinking that this blog is getting a bit depressing. I know I'll be posting more tearjerkers, but this morning I wanted to write a funny post.
My mom keeps a comb in her church bag for my kids to play with during Sacrament Meeting to keep them quiet. Well, it's mostly for my two-year old, Buddy. So, yesterday Buddy decided that daddy needed his hair done. After two or three swipes with the comb he looks up and says-to daddy- "Now you're a beautiful princess!"
Yes, we were cracking up as quietly as possible. Not sure what was said during that time because I thought I would die from laughter. Totally unexpected :)
Yesterday was also a day of growing up. Sissa lost her 3rd tooth, one on the top. It was very funny. I told her that her tooth looked funny and she went to my parents' bathroom to check if it was bleeding. She comes out and says "it's coming! I just felt a pop!" and it was bleeding like crazy. Of course my dad offers to help but she says she can do it. After three brave tugs, it came out! She was so proud of herself. I got the biggest kick out of her new lisp! I'm sure her speech will correct itself, but for now, I'll just smile at the cuteness.
See, I'm not an emotional wreck ALL the time ;)
Monday, March 8, 2010
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Follow-up appointment
This morning I had my follow-up with my dr after surgery. It was supposed to be 2 weeks after surgery, but my dr is headed up to Alaska next week to be a dr at a clinic there. Cool, eh?
The pathology report came back. There was no fetal tissue. That means another blighted ovum. To my ears, that says I wasn't REALLY pregnant and that I shouldn't be so upset. It's not like my baby died, right?
I know no one is saying this to me. I just feel like not only has my pregnancy been stripped from me, now there wasn't even a baby. I might as well have not gotten pregnant in the first place.
Why did I get pregnant in the first place? Seriously? If it was just going to be taken away and a spirit didn't even get a body out of it? I've already had one of these!!! Statistically speaking, I shouldn't be here. Who has two blighted ovums? Who has such bad luck? Apparently, we do.
The first time I went through this, I actually considered myself lucky. I told myself, "at least a baby didn't die". I don't feel that way this time. I feel cheated.
Also, please don't tell me to just get over it or not think about it. People close to me have said this. It's too soon to get over it! In fact, I'll NEVER get over it. I still think of my other two miscarriages EVERY.DAY. It doesn't help! It HURTS! It tells me that you don't care about my baby. It tells me that you have gotten over it yourself and will never think of it again.
Lucky you.
The pathology report came back. There was no fetal tissue. That means another blighted ovum. To my ears, that says I wasn't REALLY pregnant and that I shouldn't be so upset. It's not like my baby died, right?
I know no one is saying this to me. I just feel like not only has my pregnancy been stripped from me, now there wasn't even a baby. I might as well have not gotten pregnant in the first place.
Why did I get pregnant in the first place? Seriously? If it was just going to be taken away and a spirit didn't even get a body out of it? I've already had one of these!!! Statistically speaking, I shouldn't be here. Who has two blighted ovums? Who has such bad luck? Apparently, we do.
The first time I went through this, I actually considered myself lucky. I told myself, "at least a baby didn't die". I don't feel that way this time. I feel cheated.
Also, please don't tell me to just get over it or not think about it. People close to me have said this. It's too soon to get over it! In fact, I'll NEVER get over it. I still think of my other two miscarriages EVERY.DAY. It doesn't help! It HURTS! It tells me that you don't care about my baby. It tells me that you have gotten over it yourself and will never think of it again.
Lucky you.
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